Standing on the Edge of the Wilderness

Things are happening around me and I have been there before. I know that I am standing on the edge of a new wilderness. Yes, this time will be different. Each wilderness is but I don’t like them. Psalm 23:3 says: “He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.” I have enjoyed a few years resting beside still waters. My time of rest appears to be over!

While I battled with my obedience, I cried to God, “I want my life back”.

“It’s not your life, it is mine, I want your life, I want you to trust me, even in this” was God’s reply.

“I don’t want to go there again. I have been there and I didn’t like it the last time.” I moaned as the tears flowed.

“But you have to go through the wilderness to get to the place I want you to be.” He shot back.

Our lives are made up of alternative walks in the dry, barren places and strolls along the green pastures beside streams of water.

Yes, I am still having trouble saying “Not my will but thine”. I don’t know how long I will have to walk in this new wilderness. I know that I don’t walk alone, that Jesus walks with me but I also know that this one will not be easy either. I have walked with Jesus for most of my life, and He has not let me down yet!

However, like Abraham I would like to think that God has another answer for me but I know deep down there is no other way for me to get where God wants me to be and enjoy the blessing of resting beside the next cool waterhole on His green grass.